The Beauty of Impossibility

This has nothing to do with Proverbs, but this has been something God has been teaching me these past few weeks. As some of you might know, I have been really emo(tional) lately, the reason being many various things, the main thing being the fact that I lost the songwriting contest, which had been the highest part of my life until its door closed on me. Eventually, one door after another closed on me, leaving me in a dilemma whether I should continue to pursue my passion or pursue something reasonable. In my confusion, I resorted to seeking God Himself, reading His word and spending more time in prayer. Two-thirds of the time I was crying out to God, complaining about my crummy circumstances. I was even irritated by Christian alternative band Leeland for putting up a blog about dreams and God "designing you to change the world," right after I lost the same contest that discovered Leeland Mooring himself. I prayed for some sort of solution or, at least, comfort. I didn't get a solution; however, God gave what He always gives--comfort, in an unexpected way.

Everyone knows this story, but who cares? :)

So my best friend and I went to the mall last Saturday. While browsing through Barnes and Noble, we nearly ran into a man, maybe twenty-something and wearing black from head to toe--vest, t-shirt, tight pants, not to mention the aviator sunglasses covering his eyes. Grace and I couldn't help but chuckle at "Mr. Cool," who even hang around the philosophy section like some kind of smart guy. Okay, I knew we shouldn't have been judging him, but for lack of better words, Grace+Samantha=Crazy. We kept running into him, around the store and at the coffee shop, while just barely supressing our giggles. Eventually, he noticed us and left the store with his two companions. Hours later, my mom and I went to Guitar Center to buy a much-needed amp for my guitar, when suddenly, I saw him again! He was with the same two people from the mall, but this time, his sunglasses were over his head. He glanced at me for a second, startling me, then looked away.

You might not see anything significant or unique about my story, but it reminded me of God's power to do what seems impossible. I mean, what are the odds of seeing the same person twice on the same day in separate places? Today, my mom's work called and told her to stay home today, while my dad (who usually doesn't work on Mondays) worked 'til noon. It was perfect, since my dad got paid for my mom. This all reminded me that God can do anything, and everything that He does is perfect. After all, He did say in Jeremiah 29:11, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" God never lies. In fact, I can think of a bunch of reasons why God would close the music door on me. Right now just isn't the right time yet. However, when my time does come, I will be praising God for making everything work out perfectly.

Sorry it's so long.